October 30, 2006
“arrived” [anorexic]
“The only thing that comforted me when I ate…
was getting rid of it fast.”
Shelly, age: 23
sub~420 calories per day average
“I had a tube in my nose for 5 years.”
“It’s kinda embarressing 2 have that and have 2 go 2 school and 2 work…”
“I was getting 4rmula through it~
I was suppose 2 get three cans of 500 calories a night-
but i’d only do one,
and i’d run it like real s-l-o-w-l-y.”“My dad was like: “My child can’t have a Tube in her Nose!”~
so he took me to the doctor.”
I woke up with this tube in my stomach.
When i first got it [i was so messed up] i was like:
“Hey, this is easy access to my Stomach [eaten food].”
“I learned i could just flex my stomach muscles in a certain way and the food would come out!
It was a good feeling ’cause i didn’t have 2 throw up.”
Getting it removed was hard~ because it had become a part of me.
“One girl was even saying that getting a tube is your “staus symbol”~it says that you are “really” anorexic.”